I’m not yet myself
Comments (4) In my upcoming show, I stage something along the lines of the dialogue from this post:
I don’t do it as often anymore, but I used to have conversations in my head between myself and Rebecca, who was not yet “myself.”
My conversations would usually start when I was feeling particularly stupid, or sad, or masculine. She’d start, this Rebecca that I imagined myself as in some alternate universe, speaking to me across the barrier which separated our realities: “You’re never going to be happy if you keep on like this.”
The section was well-received at the work-in-progress showing, but I realized that the audience was watching a very different scene than I thought I was portraying. The response I got from the friends who were at the showing was, “There’s a great dramatic irony to that scene, because obviously Rebecca ‘wins.’ You did transition, and you’re no longer who you were.”
But my emotional connection with the scene is very different.
Themocracy